Part 1 I was born in the countryside in 1967 my mother, a nurse, was very young when I was born, she was only 17 she came from a rather poor family and Germany wasn't rich at that time of course, she was very beautiful. Imagine! the time of the Beatles and mini-skirts she was looking for a man to help her to break out once, I saw a photo of my father very handsome, tall with the best car at that time x the first year of my life, I spent at my grandmother's a real traditional woman she used to say: "a fatty boy is a good boy" and so she fed me as a 1 year-old baby, I was much overweight Never ever anybody talked to me about why I wasn't with my mother or father x when I was 1 and a half years old, my half-sister was born my stepfather was always very correct  and never made any difference between me and my half-sister only at the age of 16, I was told that he wasn't my real father Can you guess the reason why I had to be told that he wasn't my real father? X Imagine, I wanted to be a policeman! But what has this to do with my real father? Very simple! When you want to enter any kind of state service, all your dates are asked and there, I found out, at the age of 16, that my father was my stepfather and that I didn't know my father. How did I react to this new state of affairs? Why did I want to become a policeman? X I was not a very good student and not really clever the people around me were far right wingers real nationalists, I would even say they were racists and I was too young, without experience and therefore I was a racist myself and people like this often want to get a position where they can use force against others x only later at the age of 18 when I began travelling around in the world, and became a foreigner I saw that the world wasn't a plate but a globe everywhere I went, nationalists treated me badly just as I would have done, had they come to my country so I felt what racism really meant it was the liberal and open people who talked to me and welcomed me and so, I became liberal and open myself x How did I react to this new state of affairs? Well, my stepfather was a good and very correct man / father / husband and I will always be grateful to him I think that at that time, I just had other thoughts in my mind like all youngsters at the age of 16 or 17, I rebelled against everything and everybody my stepfather was not a very fashionable man, not the dream of a man and as my half sister and me weren't small children anymore, my mother didn't really need him anymore and she made him feel it the older we children were, the more her old dreams of a life in richness awoke me as teenager, I felt the family ties loosen I came home late or sometimes didn't show up at all and as my stepfather was pushed out of the family, he lost his authority there are many other factors too I will write about them while going into my childhood a bit deeper for the last 35 years, I haven't really thought about my childhood it's partly interesting and partly strange x I had a very carefree and at the same time mindless childhood I was brought up in the countryside where people are very simple it was a medieval city with at most 3 000 habitants a picturesque medieval church and city walls from the same time however, there was no cinema or even bookshop of course, a television set in every household climbing trees, playing in the forest or soccer, riding a bike a total cultural nihil but native inhabitants are very proud of it So, you would ask where my today's knowledge and state of mind came from Further to part 2! Back to list!